Ellis Duane Bigelow

Ellis Duane Bigelow

There is such a thing as parent guilt….I know because I have it. I worked hard to earn a trip to Puerto Vallarta through Nerium, it was not easy but I soon found out there are things more important–I thought I knew this.

Haleigh and Scott were not due to have the baby until the first week in November so I figured I’d be ok to go on the trip and be ready for the baby to come when I got home. The time got closer for us to leave and Haleigh was already having contractions, but still not close enough to be having her baby yet.

We talked to Haleigh about going or staying, which was not the problem. Later she told me it was something I said that really bothered her. She said she was hurt because I told her if she had the baby we would fly home and then go back if we needed to. Seriously? How dumb is that?

The entire time we were gone we called everyday to see how things were going and what the doctor was saying. We continued to hear Haleigh was still moving slowly. We made it through the week but found out the morning we were leaving to come home she had already had the baby that morning.

Of course my motherly instinct set in and I was feeling very guilty for not being there. Moments after Ellis was born Haleigh started to feel short of breath–she knew right away something was wrong, she couldn’t breathe and felt like her throat was closing up. She began to cough and couldn’t catch her breath. Her lungs felt like they were collapsing and her oxygen levels were dropping really quickly. Her doctor took one look at her and immediately called for back up. She said the room went from three people to 25 within a few minutes. They started her on a heart monitor and rushed her in for a CT scan. She said her heart went from feeling an overwhelming amount of indescribable love and happiness to terror as they wheeled her away. They admitted her into the ICU, and her doctor told her she had blood and fluid in her lungs–somehow that fluid traveled up into her lungs causing pain in her chest. She spent quite a bit of time in the ICU away from Ellis.

Poor Scott was devastated standing holding his brand new baby watching the staff frantically rushing around Haleigh and finally rushing her to the ICU. I’m not going to even try to understand the emotions he must have been going through. I try to live with no regrets, but today I feel regret for not being there for my baby girl.

Boy do I make mistakes, I say things I shouldn’t and I’m continually apologizing to my children.
I would never intentionally hurt any of my children, all I can do is say I’m sorry and do better next time. I hope my children will be more in tune and better at motherhood than I have ever been.

Welcome to our world Ellis Duane Bigelow born October 28th, 2017 at 8:14 am. He weighed in at 6 lbs 14 oz. and 22 inches long.

Happiness at every Age

Happiness at every Age

I believe some of my best days are yet to come. There are researchers who say levels of happiness are different as life changes throughout our lives.

Depending on what was happening in our life at different ages, happiness kind of follows a U-shape curve as we age. Your peak years of happiness seem to be not only when you are young, in great health and having fun but also again in retirement when your mind and body may not be as sharp and fit but you have a new outlook and want to make every moment count.

I love that our Heavenly Father created us all equal but with different spirits and gave us choices. What makes one person happy or content may be different from what makes someone else happy and elated. Throughout life our expectations of happiness change, as my journey from one phase of life to the next I’ve definetly matured and learned from all my experiences.

Most people in their 20’s are motivated by school, involved with causes and comparing themselves to other’s their age. My 20’s were filled with heartache and disappointment. Balancing dating and career choices can be challenging. My advice; focus on what you can control-doing your best. Try getting into the best school for YOU, and start a good job. Ignore what you cannot control–don’t compare your ‘likes’ on Facebook or social media to what everyone else is doing…just be you the beautiful flower you are beginning to bloom into.

In the third decade of life many people have established themselves in careers and began families. If you choose to experience a career or become an entrepreneur or being a wife and mother be the best at it as you can. Pray for patience. In a career, George Vaillant M.D. says there are four C’s to finding joy. “Find something you are competent at, committed to, compensated for and contented with.” As a young mother I made so many mistakes, and compared myself to mother’s who I believed were completely out of my league of knowledge in parenting.
Now looking back my advice would be this; it’s important to be sure you’re being valuable to someone else, maybe your children or husband. Form and cultivate relationships, not just at work but in all aspects of your life, where you have something to offer that someone else wants.

When I turned 40 I felt I was in the best health of my life, eating right, working out everyday and enjoying my teenagers. For some people it’s a balancing act to take care of their children and care for their aging parents. I didn’t have the pleasure of caring for my mother as she aged, so I concentrated on my family life. The mothering ‘guilt’ was gone I felt I had done well at raising intelligent beautiful children. In my 40’s I began to understand a little about happiness, I was more calm and peaceful. My story is not quite typical, as in my late 40’s I was diagnosed with breast cancer, but for the typical person in their 40’s it’s a time of self assurance, finding joy in what they have accomplished in life thus far.

Now I am in my 50’s–I read one time that the younger generation believes when you wake up on your 50th birthday you suddenly want to move to a small village in Costa Rica to open up a dog shelter…..ha ha, if my family is reading this they will laugh because that is that last thing on earth I would do–no matter what age. As funny as that is, it’s simply not my reality. I have always been someone’s mom, or Eric’s wife. I have had to redefine myself seek out new hobbies, try new things. I’ve had to learn to not compare my wealth to the health I had in my 20’s. I now realize I don’t get everything in life, but I’ve managed to accomplish quite a bit. I happy on a different level, everyday I thank my Heavenly Father for allowing me to experience another sunrise, or the opportunity to play with my beautiful grandchildren. I’ve learned I am enough, I am strong, brave and compassionate. I am celebrating the small miracles I see in my life and look forward to exploring more of who I am. I listen to my heart and ask for help through prayer. I love my life right now, I’m true to myself and work hard to serve others.

I am looking forward to doors opening up for me as I move into my 60’s and beyond. Above all my family means more to me than ever before. I have faith and hope for a future full of pure joy.

XOXO Monya Bonbon

There is an upside to feeling Down

There is an upside to feeling Down

Positive emotions always feel good but experts say the negative ones are just as important.
I think social media has so many good features and the idea of seeing into other’s lives can be used for good. Scroll through your social media outlets chances are you will see smiling faces and stories of perfect children. Couples holding hands walking at sunset on the beach. friends toasting over celebrations and promotions. There are some who post about somber moments or topics, but overall, positivity outshines negativity.

The problem with this, real life isn’t always roses and candy. Live is full of disappointments, both small and large. We are all thrown curveballs, form lay offs to losing a loved one. The problem with this is we live in an age when people put only their most perfect moments on display, it therefore would be easy to feel as if you’re the only one who ever goes through tough times.

Surprise, you are not alone, and the hard parts are just as important for a life full of happiness as positive experiences.It is irrational to think we can rid our lives of all negative experiences. I’ve always said “It’s less about what happens and more about how you deal with it”

Despite what articles, books and social media suggest, human beings are not designed to feel happy every second of everyday. Negative emotions do serve a purpose, both evolutionarily and emotionally. When we think of emotions such as sadness, stress and anxiety as red flags that your mind wants you to pay attention to, sadness and other negative feelings indicate that we nee to make some changes. When we are angry usually it is because we feel we have been wrongly accused of and feel the need to correct. If you feel anxious there may be a threat you need to address. When you are sad it means you care about a situation so deeply that it’s causing you distress. In my life negative situations have always leg me to something better like a job or new relationships. I never beat myself up when I have these feelings because it has been proven repressing negative moods can actually make you feel worse.People who are able to accept their emotions both the light and the dark-without judgement are better able to cope with stress and feel better in the long run. We need to remember Happiness is not static-it’s more about moving towards your goals. I’ve said before, when I am having a difficult day or given a not so positive diagnosis I go into my closet shut the door and either scream, yell, cry or pray. When I’m done throwing my tissy fit I go out the door and it’s over, I’ve trained my brain to deal with disappointments by doing this.

I’ve learned there are a lot of strategies to get past the difficult times. I learned from David Byrd to be present and focus on the good you have in your life right now. If you are able to use your senses to help you snap back into the present it helps. For example if you are sitting you car, feel the back of your leg touching the seat. Feel the air-conditioning blowing on you. This helps remind your brain in sensations that everything is going to be ok- you can find some peace in whatever is going on. Another good old fashion way to remove problems is to have some distractions, my grandchildren are my favorite distractions. Go to a movie, go get a manicure or pedicure maybe even a massage.

Not everything in life is black and white, some people try to sort things that happen into these neat little categories; either good or bad. I am not one of those people I live in the gray area. I think when we focus on either end of the spectrum it ignores the in-between part, the area where I usually live, the gray part. I think the gray area is an exciting are to live in, it shows that you are transitioning, and signals you’re brain that things are finally falling into place. The happiest people I know wouldn’t feel that way if they didn’t experience hard times. We grow and become who we are supposed to be when we experience all of the areas on the spectrum. Most of the people I know who have been through really tough things come out better people because of it–was it fun? Ummmm….No but the strange thing about going through the worst possible scenarios in life is that eventually they become the best things that could have happened to us.

XOXO Monya Bonbon

Happy Children

Happy Children

There are actually steps you can take to make sure you are raising children who will always look on the sunny side of things.

How many of you know happiness can be learned? Happiness is a skill trait rather than an inborn personality trait. We were all born with the natural ability to feel sadness, anger, and frustration. However, if we teach our children at a young age the language of happiness they will naturally gravitate to it first.

So many times children focus on their own needs rather than on helping others. When a child see’s their parents giving and helping other’s they are raised in an environment of intentionally looking for service to give. It’s interesting; children who are raised thinking when they ‘have’ material things they are happy vs. children who are raised to give usually end up being the one’s who get more.

When parents teach a child that making caring for other’s a priority by stressing kindness over happiness and provide opportunities for their children to actually practice caring and gratitude
it expands the child’s circle of concern to more than just a ‘me’ or ‘mine’ thinking.

This all starts with parents and grandparents attitudes. Children watched and hear everything we do and say. I recently attended a conference with Martin Seligman, director of the positive Psychology Center at the University of Pennsylvania. One thing I wrote in my notes was him giving this advice as an example for parents to use rather than complaining that the line in the grocery store is too long, try saying “This line is moving so fast, we’ll be out of here in no time at all.” Optimism needs to be directed by the adults and the children will follow.

I also do not think parents should focus on perfection. Children need to hear that they should do the best they can. Psychologist say it’s more important to praise children for their effort and hard work than for their intelligence or skills. We need to teach our children that it is totally ok to make mistakes–teach them that most of life’s lessons are learned from mistakes that have been made. I was not a very great student and had a hard time focusing, I think a B+ is cause for a celebration. Perfection will and never has been achieved by anyone I know.

Some Do’s and Don’ts from my perspective:
Do: Allow your children some downtime–less stress equals happier children
Don’t: Be the mom who pushes her children to succeed at all costs

Do: Make some “me” time a happy mom leads to happy children
Don’t: Devote every second you have to your children, no matter how much they want you to

Do: Encourage quality time with their dad. Feeling loved by dad is more important than feeling loved by mom.
Don’t: Think you’re doing your children’s father a favor by handling all child-rearing responsibilities, we don’t live in the 50’s

Do: Customize your parenting approach to your child’s personality. Some children need structure, while other’s may flourish with authority. Every child is different
Don’t: Use a one size fits all approach to parenting or discipline

Do: Draw boundaries. Children thrive on routine, so stick to your guns and enforce bedtime.
Don’t: Try to be your child’s best friend

Do: Relish the messes. Too often I missed moments of joy because I was worried about small insignificant things like the dishes in the sink
Don’t: Be a neat freak, forgetting to have fun and quality time for a bunch of chores.

XOXO Monya Bonbon

It’s Not Your Fault

It’s Not Your Fault


So many people have made this remark to me since my book was published “You know it wasn’t your fault right?”  The truth is, yes now I know that, but at the time I thought it was all my fault.

It wasn’t my fault I wasn’t protected from getting hurt at the hands of an adult.

It wasn’t my fault I wasn’t told how much I mattered, and what my individual worth was.

It wasn’t my fault I had no voice, or that I was powerless and didn’t know how to say “no.”

It wasn’t my fault I didn’t now where to draw boundaries, or how to protect my heart, mind and body from being crushed.

It wasn’t my fault the people who should have been protecting me, and guiding me were too involved in their own lives to keep me safe.

I grew up without knowing where to draw the line between abuse and love, actually I never felt love and because of this I allowed other’s to hurt me, when really all I ever wanted was to feel unconditional love.

None of that was my fault.  Growing older and becoming a woman I learned how to let myself feel anger, disappointed, and trust by allowing those emotions to be real.

I think it’s important to let yourself be angry.  You should be angry that you were never told how much you were worth. That you never protected yourself because nobody ever protected you.  It’s important for you to know you did not allow people to violate you. Those lines should have been there but never were because you weren’t taught how to draw those lines in the sand.

Because I wasn’t  taught how important I was, and how much it I mattered it took cancer for me to understand how much I love life, and how to find happiness. I do this by bringing joy and  happiness to other’s, I serve everyday someone who needs love or simple remembrance that people do care.

I needed to first let the anger rise within me. Allow myself  to cry tears of rage and grief for all I had lost. So much was taken from me – other people look life, light and fun from my life–those things I can never get back, but I can choose today to move forward and be happy.

My advise to those who have felt the feelings of abandonment  is to use that anger to fight for yourself in the way you should have been fought for. Use it to reclaim all that has been taken, to reclaim your heart. Let the anger become a fire that rages in your soul and burns away the tarnish that others have left upon you. Let the flames consume you, let them purify you, let them cleanse you and refine you until all that is left is the beauty of who you really are.

Your worth is great. You were created by the same hands that created the galaxies and the stars and the oceans and the storms and the wind that rages across the four corners of the earth. You were breathed into existence, not by accident, but with purpose, with promise. The entire universe listens just to hear the beating of your heart and the whisper of your breath. You were meant to be here. You were supposed to be here.

You were wanted here, you have a purpose, find it and run with it.

You are worthy of the kind of love that nurtures your soul and heals your heart. A love that sees your value and worth and believes in you. A love that is strong and kind, loyal and true. A love that brushes the hair from your eyes and kisses your forehead and gives you its jacket when you are cold and holds your hand when you are scared and draws you into its arms and doesn’t let go until it stops hurting. You are worthy of someone whose feet are anchored; who loves you when you radiate with the light of the moon and stars, and loves you even harder when you are cast in the shadow of your own cold sorrow.

You are worthy of a love that will never, ever hurt you, the moment you come to know this truth, is the moment nobody can ever take that away from you again.

XOXO Monya Bonbon




Life is not always peaches and cream.  Learning how to bounce back when times are tough can help you enjoy the inevitable roller coaster we sometimes ride.

Have you ever met someone who seems bulletproof when it comes to life’s trials? I often wonder why some of the kindest people I know are constantly bombarded with challenges of life; and how they always seem to bounce back very quickly with little or no damage to their soul.  I have seen them emotional, so I know they are not hiding with their head in the sand. I believe they are simply resilient.

According to the American Psychological  Association, resilience is “the process of adapting well in the face of adversity, trauma, tragedy, threats of significant sources of stress-such as family and relationship problems, serious health issues, or workplace, and financial stressors.  It’s basically bending instead of breaking.

Anyone can learn to be resilient, I was forced to choose resilience or stay in bed and cry it out….(I actually have done that a few times)

I’d like to share with you some of the things I have found useful to build my resilience and be prepared for the next time life decides to throw me a curve ball.

  1.  FACE YOUR FEAR: I had no choice but to face my fears; cancer was a fear I never knew I had until I was diagnosed with it.  I took time to learn everything I could about the nasty villain; from reliable sources. I soon found out if I didn’t face this head on, it would restrict my life but not extinguish the villain. In other words, even if I ignored it, I still had cancer. So I asked questions (a lot of questions) I didn’t want to know statistics but wanted to know what I could do to help myself get through the difficult times.
  2. BUILD FRIENDSHIPS THAT MATTER: One of my coping skills I mastered was my blog, I used it to connect with people who were going through the same process; but restricted it to those who were interested in being positive. One of the most important things to have when you are going through a difficult time is to open your circle of friends-and be open to new relationships. I learned the hard way it is important to have people you can rely on and who can rely on you. Giving support to others to just as important as receiving it. As brave or determined you might think you are, you need a support system that can catch you when you fall.
  3. FIND A SENSE OF PURPOSE: Nietzsche a German philosopher  said it well “He who has a why to live for, can bear almost anything” I learned really fast what was important to me; family. Living your life on purpose gives you purpose and meaning in a way you probably never knew you could. There are so many distractions in life to keep you from living in the moment. When you find a reason to live and fight for you can be pretty darn strong.  One of the everyday purposeful things I do is give back to other’s-service get’s you out of your own world and gives you a sense of wellbeing.
  4. BEING PHYSICALLY ACTIVE: This one was harder for me to grasp and took a few years to realize I needed to re-evaluate my physical activity.  Before my diagnosis I was training for my first Marathon. Most of my life I have been an athlete, I love running, cycling, lifting weights and cross-training. It was a part of my life, 6 days a week I was in the gym and running the track. It came to a complete halt when the doctors suggested I stop running and cut down in my gym classes.  When asked to just walk or do some exercises at home I was appalled thinking “walking? seriously? who does that?” I’ve now opened my mind to the idea that some exercise is helpful for both emotional and physical resilience.
  5. EMBRACE CHANGE: While change is not always easy, it’s an inevitable part of life. Why fight it? You cannot control some of the things that happen to you, but you can control how you handle them.  I try to to tackle things head on and stay optimistic in regards to the out come.

We don’t always know when stress will strike, but we can be better prepared to meet it when it does by following these 5 steps I have learned to embrace. Resilience is a learned behavior–but it’s ok to feel sad, angry or disappointed. When that happens to me I go into my closet, scream, cry, yell or pray for help but when I step out of that closet I know it is game on and I dry my tears.

Thought Project

Thought Project

I’ve heard that the happiness in your life depends so much on the quality of your thoughts. I believe this is so true. For many years I was fed negative words I felt worthless and unimportant. The damage was incredibly damaging, I’ve taken the past seven years to transform my thinking by listening with my heart and acting on impressions I receive to help other people.

The brain is such a powerful organ, everyone likes to hear they are wanted, needed and important. I feel like I’ve been given a second chance to change my thoughts not only towards myself but to reexamine why people say and do the things they do.

I realize now if we all knew just how powerful they are we’d probably never think a negative thought again. I think the primary cause of un-happiness usually has nothing to do with the situation but more about your thoughts about it.

Recently Eric and I visited a few countries Italy, Croatia, and Greece. The day was absolutely beautiful, as I waited for Eric I watched a young girl (maybe 4 or 5) she played joyfully with a small souvenir her parents had bought for her. The look on the girl’s face was priceless as she counted in her cute English accent’ the times she was able to flip the ball into it’s carriage. Suddenly a grumpy old man walked passed just as she flipped the ball into the air, it happened to hit the man on the arm. He quickly turned to the little girl and said “You brat, how stupid are you?” What came next was amazing to watch. She turned and said “Sorry to have bothered you, I hope the rest of your day is better.”

In my opinion this little girl was taught very well, manners matter and she knew it. What the man said to her didn’t seem to penetrate her brain as it did mine. She continued on with a smile
she wasn’t hurt in the least by this immature, ignorant man. She realized it was his problem, she apologized and went about her business.

Changing thought process’s is very difficult, but it can be done. I’m working on it, everyday I watch and learn by the experiences around me. Is the situation really the problem? Or is there an opportunity to learn and grow? Thoughts lead to purpose–with purposes it helps us go forward with action–we know actions turn to habits–most habits decide our character, and character helps define our destiny. One thing I try to do everyday is for every negative thought I have I put money in a container, then at the end of the year I will give this to a charity of my choice. I am getting really good at releasing those negative thoughts before they enter my head and replacing them with positive ones, soon I will be replacing the negative thoughts with the positive and have a much larger amount of money to give.

Monya Bonbon

In a Nut Shell

In a Nut Shell

I’ll never forget the day I delivered each one of our four children. Each have their own delivery story, each came with a sweet scent of perfection, and a Heavenly presence. Those moments seem to have flown by, but I remember them so vividly like it was yesterday.

Frenchie and I had four children under the age of six, and I was overwhelmed. Just as one baby would go down for a nap another would wake up for play time. More than an hour or two of consecutive sleep was un-heard of. Before I knew it two were in school, then the third followed soon after. Knowing I was not going to have anymore children I tried to enjoy every moment I had with my youngest, Haleigh. We went shopping, out to lunch, played at the park and enjoyed watching movies together. The day I had to put her on the bus for her first day of school, I followed the bus to make sure they arrived safely. When I saw the route the bus took, I decided I could do it much better and have more time with her. From that day forward I took all my children to school and picked them up.

Now fast forward many years, they are all married. The three oldest have children of their own and my baby Haleigh is giving birth to her first child in November. The circle of life is happening, I never thought I’d love life this much–but I do.

In a nut shell, my advice is enjoy every bit of peanut butter and jelly that gets smeared on their faces, chairs and tables, leave the dishes one night and read a book to them, snuggle them tight, say I love you as much as possible and write it all down. Life moves so quickly, we cannot get it back look forward to tomorrow, lower your voice and soften your heart to the things that really won’t matter in a month or a year.

Monya Bonbon



This is Ray Williams, my father in law on his graduation day from Mesa High in Arizona. Oh how I love him, he passed away October 1st 2008. Today I sat in church holding Frenchie’s hand, listening intently to the speakers who gave incredible tributes to the father’s in their lives. I teared up thinking about how blessed I have been to also have men in my life who have been great examples.

Thinking back I remember Stan Johnson was one of the most influential men in my life during my teen years. He was my seminary teacher, no matter what was going on at home I always knew for one hour a day Monday-Friday I was able to get away from the stressful life I secretly lived and listen to things that were good and wholesome. I will always be grateful to him for his soft, kind demeanor and for helping to ground my testimony of Christ.

My brother in law Greg Watkins, another incredible man but often misunderstood. I always felt protected by him and knew he would do anything to support and love me in all my decisions. Sonya and Greg took over important roles in my life as I stumbled through difficult times of life.

Bob Turner was my bishop when I decided to speak up and tell about my abuse. He was gentle, patient and compassionate. Bishop’s are not trained to be psychiatrist’s or paid to give advice on the troubles that some people, like myself have gone through or are going through. They are not marriage counselors, no Bishop’s are called by God to guide and sometimes discipline those who come to them with undeniable problems. Bishop Turner suggested books for me to read, kept close touch with me weekly and referred me to a well trained counselor. I will always remember how sweet he was with me before and after I faced the stepdad–Bob is a good man.

Stephen Phelps, is another source of light in my life. I watched as a young mother not exactly knowing how to do this mother thing–I wanted to do it right but had no guidance. I watched many men an women in our church congregation raise their children Stephen and his wife Carolei are amazing parents I wanted to immulate many of their traditions and parenting skills. Interesting enough I found out later Stephen knew my mother and father in law Viola and Ray Williams. He had so many nice things to say about Viola. When I was diagnosed with cancer so many people were praying for me, Stephen wrote me a few emails that I will treasure forever. I love this man, he is an example of strength and humility. I cherish our talks and his ability to always lift me up when I know he is the one who needs to lifted during his battle with extreme back pain.

Ray Williams, was one of the most influential men in my life–He loved me and he showed that love by not only telling me but with words. Often times he would call me and ask “How’s my oldest son treating you?” There is no doubt he changed after Vi died, still he never forgot to let his family know they were loved–I loved having him as a father, he’d softly put his arms around me and whisper in my ear “thank you, I love you” I learned to love freely and unconditionally from Ray. Recently a dear friend of ours shared a story with me about Ray and Vi that didn’t surprise me knowing them, but it reaffirmed what I’ve always thought about them.
He said “Ray and Vi were the BEST parents I know. So loving and caring. They had the perfect amount of balance in their parenting and lived the gospel of Jesus Christ with so much vigor and quiet dignity.” He continued by saying ” I’ll never forget a seminal moment in my life in regards to the relationship I had with them. A teacher at Mesa Jr. High told Ray and Vi “You should be wary and careful of that boy Kurt hangs out with. He’s not a good influence and may lead Kurt astray.” He said “Despite the fact the teacher was friends of theirs Ray and Vi took this man to task and defended me. The thing is, I wasn’t a good influence on Kurt. But when I learned of how Ray and Vi had stood up for me I decided right then and there I would NOT disappoint the ‘Williams’ and I straightened up. They raised the bar for me and I instinctively raised my character to match their sentiments of me. Being Tongan many adults were suspicious of me because of my upbringing and being so poor. Ray and Vi treated me like I was one of their own son’s. I could eat whatever was in the fridge and sleep in their home anytime. I became a better person because of them, I owe them such a debt of gratitude…I LOVE Kurtie, Doran and Eric for always treating me EXACTLY as their parents had taught them. Those boys exhibit so many of their parents best characteristics. What a legacy!!”

One of the interesting facts about this story is the young man went on to play in the NFL, marry a beautiful woman and raise some amazing children. I was in tears hearing this story, it was so moving and true to the character of Ray and Viola Williams, everyone loved them.

Finally, my husband Eric aka. Frenchie has been the father I always dreamed of having for my children. He has a good mixture of humor, kindness, hardworking, and goofy. Many times I know he has not understood why I do some of the things I do, but he is still here.

Monya Bonbon



Well now, this is a new word I will be adding to my vocabulary. If there is one thing I’ve learned when it comes to my body, anything going in or out I want to know about. Nerium has recently developed two new products I’m simply in love with. Delving into the Health and Wellness arena with now three products, gives me a new reason to research. Nerium International has proven to have provided the highest quality in anti-aging products and proven to help me personally with my brain function.

So let me first explain what Mitochondria does: Mitochondria works as the digestive system of cells. They take in nutrients of cells and break them down. Mitochondria generate the energy that a cell needs to function properly. Simply put Mitochondria is the powerhouse of our cells proper productivity.They are also involved in signaling, cellular differentiation, cell death, the control of cell cycles, and the maintenance of cell growth.

Cells that have no mitochondria are unable to convert oxygen into energy. Human red blood cells don’t contain mitochondria, which prevents them from using the oxygen they carry. If these cells had mitochondria, they would use the oxygen instead of transporting it to other cells. Most unicellular that do not have mitochondria are parasitic, as they are unable to make energy for themselves and therefore must live off a host organism. Sound foreign? It did to me, so I needed it in visual form.

Youth Factor is a patent pending product that has changed the way I look and feel. With it working on a cellular level I am regenerating good cells everyday. Youth Factor gives me more energy, is a free radical defense, supports my immune system which I believe all people with auto-immune problems or who have gone through chemo and radiation need.

The truth is you don’t need to be energy-drained from drastic weather changes or jet lag or staying up to late to wind up with tired skin. The signs of an exhausted completion, saggy, dull, dry and wrinkled skin mimics the look of sleep deprivation but actually occur when the mitochondria runs out of juice and needs to be recharged. We also know age, stress, and drinking too much alcohol or smoking cigarettes can also drain the mitochondria’s power, but honestly the the biggest culprit is environmental toxins. We live in a more polluted world that is swimming with free radicals. This is the reason for the change in skin. Skin cells only have so much energy. If there are harmful chemicals in the air we breath cells use up that energy. When they try to fight them off eventually they become too fatigued and end up surrendering. This is when the damage occurs, it becomes difficult to build up collagen which in return turns into a worn out tired look. It’s a vicious cycle, but not to worry there is a solution. Youth Factor works from the inside out, helping on a cellular level.

With a previous diagnosis of breast cancer I am very select on what I put into my body I live with no regrets and need to feel confident in living the remaining years of my life feeding my cells with good nutrition and treating my body with love and care.

This is not a Nerium International ad, I am not being paid to write this; but I always post about the good and bad I absolutely love these products and believe I will add years to my life by cleaning it from the inside out. If you want more information please contact me I will personally speak with you.

Monya Bonbon